Hashi Shiyun
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[VE-ARMY] Gunnery Sergeant
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God
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August 6, 2006
1:50:06 AM
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Three years ago I joined this organization. I was thirteen then.
Now I am sixteen years of age. My life recently has been a wreck. I can't get rid of my nicotine addiction yet I'm terrified of lung cancer. My girlfriend dumped me because I am pretty much a huge asshole. The pressures I face in the assinine education system of my country drove me to breaking point at one time - I dropped all the friends and hobbies I once loved to pursue academic success. And I achieved that, being a noted student leader in school with great grades. All for a price though.
I AWOLed from the Vast Empire Stormtrooper Corps and sad to say it is one of my most regretted decisions. This place really was like family. People like Fury and Merrick, and various other lovable jerks that hung around on the Comnet and on our IRC channel. I AWOLed suddenly because I felt that I had so much to handle in RL. I forget that the VE had really been a shelter for me, a virtual home and family away from the pressures of real life. I was newly-appointed squad leader of Jester then, but then I had other leadership appointments in RL which I then considered "more important".
I just logged into comnet after what, a one and a half year absence? And I started reading old posts on the boards and I felt, strangely enough, quite emotional. I realize now how big a part this silly little nerdy Star Wars club played in my earlier adolescent times.
To all the little privates and lance corporals around here. I just wanna say this : Have fun here. Because in my time here, I certainly did. Tragically, I did not cherish it enough. -----------------------
Gunnery Sergeant Hashi Shiyun
SL/GSG Hashi Shiyun/1SQD/2PLT/1COM/1BAT/1RGT/VEA/VE [IH] [CoR] [SoA] [LoR]
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Jennabelle
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RE: God
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August 6, 2006
4:57:27 AM
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hashi, I feel your pain, being a man who has a girl whom he loves, thousands of miles away in Naperville, Illlnois, it can make a guy feel really lonely. (I know I'm a girl in VE and a guy in RL, weird....)
Anyway, I've suffered what Americans wouldn't have to suffer, I had to learn, I had to bear every burden on my shoulder, I had to go through so much to get here. I don't regret it. In fact, if it wasn't for God or Jamie, I wouldn't want to live.
God, of course, was when I met a friend from a rock climbing club I joined, Mr. Martin, a chemistry teacher at my old high school that I went to for freshman year, Naperville North High School, that's the name, the symbol is a huskie, but that's not the point. The point is he helped me get in touch with the Almighty lord Jesus Christ and I believed I was saved, despite all the sins I had suffered, I could be forgive and once again step into the light.
Then there's Jamie, out of all the girls who ever inspired me, there was no one else whom I felt more in touch with, she was a stranger to me, yet that karaoke performance made her like me. No, she wasn't my lover, but she is my offical guardian angel, and I do feel I need one. I sang "Why Not" by hilary duff, because some words of that song really inspired me, taking chances, trying new things, it wasn't hard, I suddenly realized! Singing wasn't hard, it's just about learning, singing your heart out, pushing out all emotions so the whole stage is moved, not just you but the whole stage.
Unfornately, she took a tragic trip to the mountains which cost her her life, I regretted because I didn't know more about her, but she wasn't my lover, Christine was.
If VE was Hogwarts, and I felt like being at home. Then Christine was what completes it. I met her in a ordinary math class one day, maybe the last one. I know Keef and Merrick knows about this, but I guess there is a right for everyone to hear.
Her voice was the voice of an angel, her smell outmatched any roses, and she was the perfect woman, I just only known her one year, but I had fallen in love with her, just like a Cinderalla Story. She was really beautiful, lovely, cute, and elegant. She completes my dream of a perfect woman.
There were people in my lives to influence and inspire me, people like Dan, who loved my ladies' man thing, Lauren Mulherrin, who just is Christine's best friend and the most popular girl in school, so wow, and Lauren Sellow, who help me let myself push out my emotions to Christine so I don't have to hide them.
I feel some of you may find this wearing, hearing all this love story, but I don't, I'm just trying to find a woman who will probably never hear my voice again because I told her the wrong e-mail to contact me, but I know my only way is to get on American Idol, get to the finals, and win her heart, get to know her, settle for a perfect rest of my lives. -----------------------
DarkDragoons
TRP/PFC Jennabelle/2SQD/2PLT/1COM/1RGT/1BAT/VEA/VE/Tadath
"Don't be too proud of this technological terror you've constructed. The ability to destroy a planet is insignificant next to the power of the Force. " -Darth Vader |
Jennabelle
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RE: God
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August 6, 2006
4:57:44 AM
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Rogueboy
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RE: God
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August 6, 2006
9:00:36 AM
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Jen actually I found that very beautiful, guys have a soft side to and I only recently found mine, and any guy who denies having one is denying being alive. -----------------------
He will give them death, and they will love him for it -Gladiator
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Jennabelle
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RE: God
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August 6, 2006
9:11:26 AM
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Thanks, Rogueboy, I love your opinion, my soft side is burning with delight right now. -----------------------
DarkDragoons
TRP/PFC Jennabelle/2SQD/2PLT/1COM/1RGT/1BAT/VEA/VE/Tadath
"Don't be too proud of this technological terror you've constructed. The ability to destroy a planet is insignificant next to the power of the Force. " -Darth Vader |
Kairo
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RE: God
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August 6, 2006
12:02:56 AM
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By the way Hashi, you were only placed into reserves, since you were a very active and good member, I felt even though you were absent, you didn't need to be completely AWOLed. I sent you a comnet message as well, but anyways, you are welcome back anytime you want, and Jester is always open to you.  -----------------------
Gunnery Sergeant Kairo
Platoon Commander
PC/GSG Kairo/2PLT/1COMP/1BAT/1RGT/Tadath/VEA/VE [CDS][BoA][CoR][BC][CoV]
Know your enemy and know yourself, and you will be victorious in ten thousand battles.
You may forget the past, but it always has a way of haunting your future.
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Garet Daimun
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RE: God
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August 6, 2006
12:21:30 AM
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Here here, Kai!
And Hashi, I'm sure most of us feel that way, especially with what our careers have become. The community is friendly here, and it's not to not get attatched. -----------------------
Jester Squad
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SL/GSGT Garet Daimun/1SQD/2PLT/1COM/1RGT/1BAT/Tadath/VEA [ES2C]
"If evil were a lesser breed than justice after all the years, the righteous would have freed the world of sin." - OK Go |
D'har Leth
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RE: God
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August 6, 2006
1:22:47 PM
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I only joined a few months ago, actually, it's been half a year already. I have no belief in god, no stock in religion, I have faith in myself, I believe in individualism. I bear the brunt of my problems because of this, but I'm okay with that. I have no belief in god because of all the evil in the world, all the stupidity, all the bad stuff happening to good people. Good only triumphs in action movies.
My friend and his girlfriend were on a date one night a few years ago and she was killed by a drunk driver. Not a day goes by when he or I doesn't think about the incident.
I have a soft side, but to be honest it's a bit twisted and surrounded by problems.
Therapy helps, but only so much. If I didn't find the VE, it'd be a pretty safe bet that I'd have killed myself by now. As for now, I'm a bit better, almost happy actually. Of course, I'm still eccentric as ever, I'm apparently a genius. I'm also quite morbid, but as I said, I'm alright with that.
If any that helped, I'd be surprised, but I'd still be glad to help anyway.
I have my own personal philosophies, but I'm not going to share any of them. All I can say is just be yourself, don't take shit from anyone, if somebody tells you how you're supposed to act, tell them to f*@k off, because you're better than them.
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Private First Class D'har Leth
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Yoder
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RE: God
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August 7, 2006
6:32:14 PM
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Well im happy that we have you back even though I didn't know you personally I feel for you man, i've had my rough experiences.
Yet I always come out of them,trust me VE is worth keeping. I won't speak about my experinces.Hope to see ya around. -----------------------
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Wraith Motto: When staring in the face of death, we see our reflection.
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Jennabelle
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RE: God
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August 8, 2006
6:00:11 AM
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nice, d'har, very inspiring, I ought to learn from you, so, anyone else read my post? -----------------------
DarkDragoons
TRP/PFC Jennabelle/2SQD/2PLT/1COM/1RGT/1BAT/VEA/VE/Tadath
"Don't be too proud of this technological terror you've constructed. The ability to destroy a planet is insignificant next to the power of the Force. " -Darth Vader |
Fury
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RE: God
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August 8, 2006
7:18:27 PM
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Hashi, the day you think you don't ever have a home here is the day I have to go fly to Asia to slap some sense into you.
It does me no pleasure to hear that life has been difficult for you and let's hope things turn around soon. I know a lot of members have faced difficult times and usually the camaraderie here helps, if not in any tangible way.
It is one of our unstated benefits I imagine. Or it more likely says a lot about the kind of folks who join the club in the first place.
If you're just stopping in, thanks for doing so. If you are questioning a return, know that I'm all for it as is pretty much anyone who has worked with you.
Besides, no one has made any insulting videos of me in a long time.
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Jennabelle
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RE: God
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August 9, 2006
6:15:38 AM
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good, we can all be friends, huraay!  -----------------------
DarkDragoons
TRP/PFC Jennabelle/2SQD/2PLT/1COM/1RGT/1BAT/VEA/VE/Tadath
"Don't be too proud of this technological terror you've constructed. The ability to destroy a planet is insignificant next to the power of the Force. " -Darth Vader |
Than Sion
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RE: God
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August 11, 2006
8:48:28 PM
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You know, while we are all being emotional I think I will say something too. Almost a year ago I found VE by accident while surching through the Web. Ever since I became a Star Wars fanatic I have been trapped in a world where to be such made you imature in an almost retarted sort of way. Vast Empire introduced me to people that understood the deep meaning of Star Wars and what it has brought to the world.
My parents wouldn't ever understand it, but in a way it has given me somewhat of a purpose. It gave me something to do that I worked with other people to a common goal. I know I wasn't the most respectible member in the begining with my conflicts with Jikkyo and others, but I have gotten past that and am doing pretty well in the Navy. I even made second best pilot in the 2006 Elite Squadron Compotition. What I am saying is that I am very successful here. My 16 year age does not make me un important like in the RL world.
From those that have posted about there life struggles, I can't say I know what you are going through because I really don't. But how VE has effected your lives is touching to me.
D'har Leth, I agree with you 100% on how you shouldn't let anybody tell you how to live if you don't agree with it. I have lived my whole life like that. On the other hand, I do believe in God.
VE is such a great place. I now don't know how my life would be without it.
May Vast Empire exist until the end of days.
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EFM/MPO Than Sion/Kaph 6/Wing 1/mSSD Atrus/DEF/VEN/VE(=A=)(=*SA*=)[LoM][VC:B][MC:1][SWC]{VB}
1st in Creativity
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Best of all, Elite.
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Jennabelle
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RE: God
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August 12, 2006
7:00:10 AM
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perfect, just perfect, I loved your talk on your experience, than sion, it shows how much you care about VE.
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DarkDragoons
TRP/PFC Jennabelle/2SQD/2PLT/1COM/1RGT/1BAT/VEA/VE/Tadath
"Don't be too proud of this technological terror you've constructed. The ability to destroy a planet is insignificant next to the power of the Force. " -Darth Vader
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