There is a possibility that I might suddenly disapear for no reason.  Even though I've sent in my (=A=).  And If I do...  I know that I'm going to be kicked out because of my mistakes and mistakes made upon me in my past nick.      Doggy, was a past life, someone I was, but no longer am.  I'd like to start a new VE life.  I suppose it will be incredibly difficult to forget and rage for me.  I don't see why you could even possibly forgive me.  Especially the hatred shown from some of the cammanders.  But, there are reasons I've decided to try to come back, re-enter.  Some people though, are so supportive, and I'm truly thankful.  Especially when those certain people stood up for me.  I also realize, the ops in the chats don't care to much for me either.  I seem to cause a lot of chaos, and frusturation.  I'll try to cool down just a bit on those.  If I seem like I'm too much, just tell me, I'll cool down.  I can take a hint most of the time, as long as it isn't something from a scorce of pure rage.  Then it might take me a little bit more to understand.  Explain.  And I know what your thinking, I'm a little baby, and you don't want to spoon feed me till i get my hands dirty.  Giving me hints and such.      For those of you who have no Idea who or what I'm talking about, go on ahead and call me a noob.  See what I care.  If I manage to get in a Squad, especially since the ones I've been in, have always been facing hard times, I know I wouldn't hold back sending in a report each week, even if it is jibberish.  "Today I posted, and I went on IRC..."  Even if the situation is that bleak, I would send a report in, atleast once a week, that is unless serious problems come upon me.  Unfortunetly, I can't particapate in any activities, being that the only game I have is XWA, and that seems to be having some problems.  If this doesn't apply to you, don't worry about it, don't go asking people, who the hell is Doggy?  He's a nobody, he was a nobody.      And I know I have a lot of stupid behavior to be accounted for, and trust me, it has taken it's tole...  But, I suppose I'm setting a case in history for the VE.     The man who wouldn't give up I suppose.  I've been hit hard by things that I can't give a retort back too.  Just like Jacky Robinson.  History tells us that I can't give up.  I have the right, and the will, to pursue anything I see fit.  Anyone can make something happen, it just takes the right person to finally go through with something, and make history.                                                                       Thankyou,                                                                             Fridge