True remorse is never just a regret over consequence; it is a regret over motive. ~Mignon McLaughlin, The Neurotic's Notebook, 1960
My goal here is not to portray myself a such a person who would continue to act in such a way that would defy what I have been working to do in setting a good example for others in this club. I'm not going to continue to set myself up for more and more arguments that are only going to hurt those who I hold close as my friends. I'm not writing this message to demand forgiveness, I just request it in time.
I am more than guilt-ridden from what I have done. Those people who I have called my friends for years; I regret causing the backlash that all of you have taken from what has happened. Mutiny is not the answer for any reasons I may have had for trying to justify my actions. Those of you who I may have or may not have influenced in my parting words of retirement, please, do not act on any feelings you may have had or do have about these circumstances. Those of you who already have - please, refrain from continuing with what you're doing and reverse the effects from what you have done. Nobody needs to carry the burden of my actions on their shoulders for any reason what-so-ever.
I would hope that in the future I might be able to succeed in acting in such a fashion that would be up to the standards of the way an officer should act in such a situation. I can only hope for the best - not only for myself, but for everyone who hopes for a better future for all.
